If you follow me on Instagram you may have noticed me mention lately being in a bit of a creative funk. I’ve been making a lot of things for swaps lately (which I’ll finally be able to show off!) but I haven’t been doing any cross stitch and I don’t have a project that I’ve been really, really excited to work on. I’ve been working on embroidered cranes for my 1000 crane quilt so at least I’m accomplishing something. But the deadline is so far away and there’s so much to do, it’s hard to really get excited about it at this point.
I am also stuck in this place where I want to start something new, but I know I should finish some projects from my WIP pile. One project that just keeps haunting me is Evie’s blanket.
I’ve been in such a weird place with this blanket for so long. I started it when I was pregnant with Mira because I really wanted to make Mira a blanket, but I had never made Evie one so I felt like I needed to do that first. I figured I could finish one for Evie pretty quickly, but it didn’t take long before I started running into things I regretted about the project.
– The squares were much smaller than I expected and either the blanket would be a lot smaller than I wanted it to be or I needed a ton more squares than originally planned. I decided to just finish this project even though I wasn’t happy with the size and kept telling myself “just finish it, you can always make her another after”
– I should have been weaving in the ends as I went. Since each square had 4 different colors, that was a LOT of ends to weave in and I was just leaving them all there. The idea of weaving them all in was daunting and extremely unappealing.
– I HATED joining the squares together and wished I had done a join as you go method instead. I didn’t know exactly how I wanted the squares laid out because every center circle was different and I wanted to make sure that the different colors were spread out. So I felt like I couldn’t join as I went because I wouldn’t be able to lay it out and see the whole thing. Joining the squares was so tedious and also results in even more ends that need to be weaved in.
So this blanket has been there just haunting me. I haven’t touched it in probably a year and occasionally will notice it, stuffed in a box, and feel guilty. I feel guilty that I haven’t finished it. I feel guilty that I have no desire to finish it. I feel guilty that Evie still hasn’t gotten a blanket from me. I feel guilty starting new projects knowing it’s there.
This creative funk I’m in has me thinking about the project even more and after a lot of thought I’ve finally decided it’s just time to call it quits. I know I’ve put in a ton of time and if I really forced myself I could finish it, but I really don’t want to. I learned a lot about what not to do on a project and now I need to just wipe the slate clean on this one and start something new.
I packaged it all up, the partially joined blanket, the finished squares, the extra yarn, and the crochet hook I was using. I also wrote a thank you note to whoever adopts this project along with an explanation of what I was doing and what needs to happen to finish it. I’m going to drop it off at Goodwill and hope someone comes across it and finishes it. I debated leaving my email or blog information so they could get in touch, but in the end I decided I just needed to cut ties from this project. I truly hope this blanket gets finished and someone enjoys working on it and the finished project, but if they just want to cannibalize it and use the supplies for something else, that’s fine too. I just don’t want to hear about it.
Now I feel like I can finally start planning a new blanket for Evie. I don’t think it’s going to be crochet though, I think I might try my hand at making her a quilt. She can help me pick out fabrics and bug me to finish it and get me excited about something again.
Have you given up on a project? Did it leave you feeling guilty or with a sense of relief. I’m kind of somewhere in the middle right now.
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